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Today is #internationalmensday so here is a shout out to some of the amazing men in my life... ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ @ant_c33 thank you for being such a good friend to me over the last few years. I know I drive you crazy at times but you have always stuck by me. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ @pinchbeckthomas and @benpinchbeck1 thank you for being the best big brothers a girl could wish for. We may not see or speak to each other as much as we used to but I know you are there if I need you. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ And not forgetting the biggest role model in my life, my dad. @pinchy_48 thank you for everything. You are my hero and my biggest inspiration. I don’t know where I would be without you. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ 💕💕💕 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthmatters #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ed #edwarrior #edrecovery #edfam #edfamiliy #mentalillnessawareness #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ana #anarecovery #anorexiawarrior #mentalillness #grateful #mensmentalhealth #depression #thankful #anxiety #mensmentalhealthawareness #recovery #prorecovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #mensday


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Dinner was basmati rice with greek pork stew. It was good. I'll do something quite challenging for lunch tomorrow. Have a nice evening. Keep fighting. 🌸💕🍀 #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianervosafighter #anorexiarecovery #anafighter #anorexiafighter #anarecovery #edwarrior #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #foodisfuel #foodislife #nourishtoflourish #strongnotskinny


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Day Two • Meals Two and Three (sorry) 🙈 • • So I am the worst blogger in the world and ate my food before photographing it.... BUT here’s what I had: 😋 • LUNCH: Mushroom Bolognese and spaghetti 🍝🧄 • TEA: courgette, mushroom and carrot tofu stir fry 🍜 • • There will be pictures of these tomorrow as i made extra I promise 🙈😅However I am really proud of myself as i’ve not wanted to binge at all today and I feel so much more positive and a but like my old self. I used to be so self confident in who I was and I really miss that. I lost myself in an emotionally abusive relationship and then in trying to find someone as after being with someone controlling for three years I was scared no one would want me (as my ex said) but i’m now starting to see that I don’t need no man... just MY health and MY happiness ❣️ • • Huge thank you to everyone who’s been so supportive at the beginning of this journey, i hope I don’t let anyone down and you all stay strong ❣️ • • #edrecoveryfood #edrecovery #positivity #bingeeatingrecovery #bingeeatingdisorderrecovery #bingeeatingdisoder #edrecoverywarrior #positivevibes #healthylifestyle #healthyfood #edwarrior #fitspo #veganfood #veganbreakfast #vegan #plantbased #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth


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Breakfast: banana oatmeal with coconut flakes and almonds + almond milk ... On my way home to do some homework + make some important Ed recovery calls if I can get myself to do it. I know I want to, and I have to, I have all my ducks in a row - besides financially - it’s just scary starting up. And phone calls give me so much anxiety but I’m going to do it anyway 💪 ❣️❣️❣️❣️


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Real life: my boyfriend convinced me to stay over last night by promising to buy me lunch today 🥰 definitely was the deciding factor (well, that and the @eatpastry cookie dough in his fridge) ~ {#ana #anawho #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #beated #beatana #fuckana #ed #edfam #ednos #edbattle #edfamily #edsoldier #edwarrior #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recover #recovery #recovering #prorecovery #vegan #vegansofig #veganrecovery #veganfoodshare #whatveganseat}


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This. Right. Here. If all you is fruits and veggies, you would be lacking essential nutrients such as protein, fat, carbs etc. On the other hand if you don’t ever eat fruits and veggies, you’ll also be missing nutrients as well. That’s why it’s all about BALANCE. A healthy diet is flexible and includes a VARIETY of foods. #repost #dietsdontwork #allfoodsfit #balancednotclean #balanceddiet #edrecovery #edwarrior #intuitiveeating #haes


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Hey Leute💫, Meine Laune ist heute leider nicht so gut, weil wir heute früh gleich in der ersten Stunde einen Überraschungstest geschrieben haben und ich ein mega schlechtes Gefühl hab. Dann hab ich erfahren, dass ich in der Bio Klausur wo ich eigentlich nh voll gutes Gefühl hatte eine Teilaufgabe vergessen hab und deswegen habe ich jetzt auch voll Angst dass ich da eine schlechte Note bekomme😕 . Ich hoffe, dass es euch heute besser geht!🌸♥️ . . {#anorexianerviosa #anorexianervosarecovery #eatingdissorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #recoveryisworthit #recovery #fightanorexia #fightana #eatittobeatit #healthynotskinny #magersüchtig #magersuchtkampf #magersuchtrecovery #minniemaud #food #dinner #vegetables }


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Afternoon snack...🌟 This isn’t my favorite flavor, which makes it even more difficult to finish it. But I pushed through, I have to do this. Hope you’ve had a good day so far💕 - #fresubin #nutridrink #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #snack #chocolate #edfighter #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #anarecovery #beatana #fuckana


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Feliz día del hombre ! Aquí un Brownie... O mi intento :'3 Sin Harina sin azúcar Tan especial y rico para ti ❤ @am_rodriguezj #dessert #postre #brownie #chocolate #banana #nosugar #noflour #noguilt #edrecovery #edfighter #edwarrior #edwin #healthyhabits #foodpics #foodshare #healthyfood #foodphotography #food #dietculturesucks #antidietculture #foodlover #healthyfood #internationalmensday #diadelhombre También hice para mi papá y hermano pero una versión diferente :v


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reminiscing on the days when i actually had time to go to the gym and wasn’t working overnight shift, days shifts and trying to do class 🙃😬 but mental sanity and general health is more important than working out. so accepting the fact that this week is dedicated to all things nursing and fitness is takin a back seat


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¿ Qué opinas de esta frase ? #FelizMartes 💌


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A lot has happened again. First of all I’m not doing very well mentally. That’s why I haven’t been so active. It’ll propably take a while for things to get better but I still believe they will! 💪 Also we’ve decided with my therapist and doctor that I’ll go inpatient in december. That has also brought my mood down a bit but I’ll be OK. I think going inpatient is going to help me a lot so I’m sort of excited about it but also I’m so damn scared about it. Wish me luck!


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i get a lot of questions surrounding weight gain and being able to “handle” or “deal” with it. implying that you need handle or deal with weight gain is just emphasising you yourself that it is burdening and something wrong; we need to stop that. weight gain is a part of life. weight fluctuates. gaining weight isn’t bad, or something you must deal with- it’s normal. in recovery, some of us go through weight restoration, also known as getting our body to a safe place where it was prior to our ED. even with this circumstance, weight gain isn’t the problem. it’s your mind. the brain that has convinced you that living in a healthy body is disgusting. the thoughts that correlate an increase on the scales to the pits of hell, flames galore. perhaps the correct phrasing should be, “how can i handle my disordered thoughts when i see this increase?” or “how can I accept my body and a changing number on the scale?” because, no matter what we’re told by our own minds or from daft diet adverts plastered everywhere... - ♥️ WEIGHT GAIN ISN’T BAD. THE STIGMA AROUND WEIGHT GAIN, ON THE OTHER HAND, IS. ACCEPT YOUR BODY; THIS IS NATURAL, IT IS HEALTHY, IT. IS. OK. ♥️


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❄️Freezin our little titties off 💯🌨️😂 First time out the actual house in about 5 days😮 and it's bloody BALTIC🥶 we've both been stuck in bed🛏️ (does have SOME advantages 😉👌😊🍆) with this mingin flu🤧🤒 just been sleeping, coughing, blowing my nose👃so much the skin is all ripped off😩and feeling drained of all energy & motivation 😣also have numb and tingly extremeties 👋and feeling dizzy AF😵kind of like my depression 😥and I have been feeling really down, isolated and pointless since coming back from Spain??? 😕😭 so it's probably a bit of my physical💪mental 💆‍♀️and emotional 💟energy that's super low💫 and needs a proper recharge ✨⚡😂🔋 I still feel disconnected 😶and my anxiety & paranoia that nearly overcame me😣 when we were out... has got even worse 😖 but I'm still proud we made it out 👍 now time for some serious adulting 🙄😕👌👏 #mentalsonthemove


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[☝🏼Throwback to summer of '18☀️] What is recovery?🧐 Recovery is nourishing your body, accepting yourself kinda falling in love with yourself again♥️ finding a way back to your real self letting go of worse habits Recovery is different to anyone some need more food some less some need to gain some need to maintain some need to let go of bounds some need to make new bounds Someone needs to do this or that And another one has to go with the exact opposite! So don't judge someone's recovery based on your own experience or some examples❌ We all got different ways We all got different struggles & strategies! BUT there's ONE THING we all need🙏🏻 ONE THING we all need the same amount of!☝🏼 SUPPORTMENT!!!♥️ So go ahead, obviously be careful But instead of questioning & hating Spread love & awareness!🙌🏼🥰 You guys: WE NEED TO SUPPORT EACH OTHER!👯‍♀️ Lots of love, M🕊♥️ #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #recovery #anorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryisworthit #eatingdisorder #edwarrior #ed #recoverywin #supportment #nohate #recoveryispossible #mentalhealthawareness #dontjudge #eatittobeatit #mentalillness #realrecovery #realrecovery #edsupport #benice #prorecovery #selfcare #donthate #eatittobeait #recover #besupportive #change #progress #supporteachother


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🌹 Le déclic 🌹 Le voici le voilà, ce changement Mon déclic ? Je crois bien que sa a été la fois où j'ai vu cette photo de moi, j'en avais déjà vu pas mal, mais celle ci ma remis les pieds sur terre, a ce moment là je devais peser au alentour de 120 kilos.. 120 kilos pour 1m60 😔 moi qui adoré prendre soin de mon corps, faire du sport, avec ce poids là natation la course à pieds mettais impossible ! Arrivé a ce poids je pleurer tout les jours. Tous les jours j'angoissais de sortir de ma maison, du regard que les autres allaient porter sur moi. J'ai déjà eu des remarques dans la rue, encore aujourd'hui elles me font souffrir. Quand on ce fait siffler comme un clébard et appeller la truie, ou alors cachalot quand on va a la plage, je peu vous le dire sa reste encré, ces phrases resterons graver a jamais dans mon esprit. J'ai décider de me prendre en mains et de me faire suivre par des professionnels, ce qui franchement m'aide énormément ! Nous ne pouvons pas y arriver seuls c'est impossible ! Nous avons tous besoin d'être épauler, que ce soit pour l'anorexie, la boulimie ou l'hyperphagie ! #troubleducomportementalimentaire #boulimie #tca #onlacherien #jevaisyarriver #wonderbodyguide #mincir #reequilibragealimentaire #regime #regimeuse #mangersain #healthy #avantapres #tbc #wbg #topbodychallenge #anorexie #anorexiementale #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #anawarrior #anasoldier #beatana #beatanorexia #beated #bulimia #ed #edwarrior #edrecovery


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What is Dysmorphia? It is your inner dictator. English⬇️👑⬇️ . מה היא דיסמורפיה? היא הדיקטטור הפנימי. כן, דיסמורפיה היא עיוות של המציאות, עיוות של התפיסה שלי את הגוף שלי, אבל לא בהכרח כפי שנדמה לך. לא, זה לא בהכרח להסתכל במראה ולראות מאה וחמישים קילו יותר, לפספס את העצמות הבולטות ולהחליט שאני במשקל יתר מסוכן. זה להחליט שמה שיש; פשוט לא מספיק. לראות רק את הפגמים ולהחליט שאני לא רזה מספיק כי... כך החלטתי. הדיסמורפיה היא הדלק של הפרעת אכילה, קולות השנאה שהיא משמיעה משמרים את ההתנהגות ההרסנית. אבל זה לא נגמר שם. זה פרפקציוניזם משתק. זה הקול הפנימי שתמיד יאמר שאני לא מספיק. לא יפה מספיק, לא חכמה מספיק, לא מוכשרת מספיק, לא ראויה מספיק. וגם לא חולה מספיק, לא חולה מספיק כדי לבקש עזרה, כדי לאכול יותר, כדי לחמול על עצמי. דיסמורפיה היא ביטוי של הדיקטטור הפנימי הזה שאומר לנו לא להקשיב לעצמנו, שמתעקש שנתאים את עצמנו לסטנדרטים של מישהו אחר. שדואג לבעוט בנו כשאנחנו כבר למטה, שמאיים לנווט את מהלך חיינו במסלול ללא אהבה. איך מדיחים דיקטטור? תשאלו את ברוטוס. רק שבמקום פגיונות, משתמשים באהבה. זריקה קטנה של אהבה ועוד אחת, עד שהשנאה, הכעס והפחד דועכים ובמקומם עולה שלטון חדש. שלך.👑 #eatingdisorder #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexiawarrior #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #recoveryjourney #recovery #recoveryblog #blogger #blog


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*CALORIE COUNTING- I WANT YOUR OPINIONS* ⠀ I’m opening this one up to discussion, as I’m genuinely curious of your thoughts... ⠀ Let’s assume the government were to suddenly decide that they were going to completely irradiate calorie content information on food packaging. ⠀ I’m not talking ingredients and allergens, I’m talking number content. ⠀ Is knowing the nutritional content of food necessary or is it an unhelpful and irrelevant device that only encourages the ‘epidemic’ of disordered eating? ⠀ DISCUSS. ⠀ (Please respect that you are all untitled to your views and allow this to be a respectful and informative discussion) ⠀ I will write a blog based on findings in the next few days. ⠀ ~Lucy 🌻


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My friends are great supporters of my mental health!✨💕💪🏻🧠Here are some of the many ways they do so:⠀ •They stay in regular contact with me📱⠀ •They listen to me👂🏻 ⠀ •They are patient and understanding✨⠀ •They don’t judge me or criticize me👏🏻⠀ •They respect my limits🚫⠀ •They offer me advice📝⠀ •They ask if there’s anything they can do for me🌿⠀ •They remind me of my coping skills🌟⠀ •They take care of their own mental health💕⠀ •They respect their limits🙅🏼‍♀️🙅🏻🙅🏼‍♂️⠀ •They encourage me to seek professional help when needed 👓⠀ How do you help your friends with their mental health?⬇️


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peppermint mocha cream and a vegan chocolate chip cookie from starbucks 🤩🌟 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ omg ive been wanting to try a season holiday drink but i put it off for so long so heres a big big win for me!!!! but honestly im not rlly a fan of the peppermint mocha 😅 mint and chocolate is not rlly my thing 😷😷 but nevertheless i finished it!


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So this was my B E A U T I F U L lunch. I am being Clearly sarcastic as The veggie burger looks like ??? Awful. For some reason this picture looks kinda heavenly?? It was all safe food, but I hate to eat alone. Which makes everything harder, but I managed it. Also have a math tutor coming so I need fuel to keep me concentrated. Small Steps and I might be able to enjoy a lunch alone soon. Also Im Going to explain the veggie burger Deal I smash it when I cook it then I make sure ALL of it is warm and cooked. It’s normal just squashed.


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This is what a typical meal looks like for me in the cafeteria, I call it a burrito bowl 🌯, but really it just ends up being a pile of mush 😂. Either way it’s still dang tasty 😋! In this bowl I have lettuce, white rice, black beans, salsa, and guacamole 😍. Oh, and you can’t forget the jalapeños 🌶😉! - Like I mentioned in my last post, I have A LOT of work lately and it’s been overwhelming to say the least 😬. It just feels like one thing after the other, like you can’t catch a break! Know the feeling? I think we all do. - I guess I just want to say that things will and do get better, I’ve found it just takes a little faith and trust 😉. It is sometimes hard to trust the process and sometimes it feels like you will never come out the other side. But I PROMISE that if you just keep going and persevering, you will come out on the other side. - It’s hard to trust that things will be okay when the stress and feelings have already lasted to long. This is how how I feel right now in a few aspects of my life, like these feelings will never end. But I know they will and I know that if I turn around now that it will only take longer to get where I want to be 😌. - Either way, that’s my little rant for the day 😆. Just wanted to let you all know that things do get better, but you MUST go through the hard in order to get to the other side 😉. Have a great Tuesday everyone, love y’all 🥰❤️💕!


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One of my faves. Maybe it’s because I just really feel what I wrote? . . I mean I always do but something in this one makes me want to re-read it again. . Had to reshare it, this time like this. . Feel free to share ❤️


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While I truly love Thanksgiving (food + gratitude 🧡), this time of year can be really difficult for so many folks, for SO many reasons. For those who do celebrate any of the upcoming holidays, rather than posting a healthy side dish recipe as one might expect from a dietitian (although, DM me if you want me to pass along my kick-ass green bean casserole recipe with bacon), I’m sharing one of the key ingredients to cultivating more peace of mind, body & spirit this Season — @evelyntribole ‘s Intuitive Eater’s Bill of Rights. Is there another specific holiday ‘right’ you need to fully embrace in order to experience more peace & joy in the midst of all the festive feasting this year?? #intuitiveeating #haes #healthateverysize #antidiet #foodfreedom #bodytrust #bodykindness #bodyimage #edwarrior #edrecovery #healthyholiday #selfcare #selfcompassion #ditchthediet #nourishment #bodyrespect #bodypositive #bopo #allfoodsfit #mindfuleating #embodiedliving


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Bad lighting but this was PENG. Vegan pie with sweet potato fries and veggies. Back in London after a week home... now to smash out the last of my projects for this term💪


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🌭 🍩 ❤️ Doughnut. Doughnu. Doughn. Dough. Doug. Dou. Do. D. De. Del. Deli. Delic. Delici. Delicio. Deliciou. Delicious. ❤️ 🍩 🌭 • Foodeets// a long doughnut cream cake thing disguised as a hot dog 🍩🌭


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😍 a note from our clients who are keeping the sitting room mood grounded and forgiving. Did you need to hear this today?


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When Did We Give It Up? . When did life become more about sleeping, avoiding, and escaping then enjoying, laughing, and fully living? . How did we go from children who found every excuse to delay bed-time to adults seeking every opportunity to delay participating in life? . When did we trade child-like enthusiasm for soul crippling adult expectation? . Why do our elaborate childhood dreams transform into crippling adulthood expectations? . These are not questions to create guilt, rather, questions to stir up curiosity. . How similar are you living to the person your 8 year old self dreamed you to be? . Continue reading in stories👆 . Not all of us were privileged to have a “childhood”, but the metaphor still hits home... . Let’s get nostalgic- what did you want to be when you grew up!? Tell us below. . #recoverywarriors #prorecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anafamily #anafighter #antidiet #anorexiarecovery #miafamily #bulimiarecovery #bulimia #ednos #bingeeating #edfighters #edwarrior #edfam #healthybodyimage #girlpower #aussiewarriors #strong #riseup #recoverywarrior


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My bed for the next couple days. Took a trip to the ER cuz my hr is 36 bpm & ended up in the hospital. It can only go up from here


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Snickers bar!!! I haven’t had one of these in years and years and years!! Oh my gosh I’ve missed these!! Guys, I. Have. So. Much. Revision. It’s awful. If I’m pretty inactive at the moment it’s because my life is literally just revising... revising... and more revising this week! Hope you’re all well ❤️❤️ #recovery #foodisfuel #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #anorexianervosa #fearfood #challenge #edchallenge #anorexiachallenge #fuckanorexia #summer2019 #fighter #edwarrior #anoreiawarrior #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexia #ana #kickanasass #wecandothis #facingedchallenge #positivity #quote #edquote #recoverywin #recoverychallenge #foodie #recoverywin #motivation #anorexiawontwin #foodporn


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19.11.2019 still feeling terrible but still had an early dinner: two slices of carrot protein toast (one with avocado, one with vegan „cheese“), some olives and pickles, a slice of wholewheat bread with hummus and half a papaya. Now I feel even worse because TW I‘m struggling a lot with body image at the moment and just feel like I can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to fight anymore. I feel ugly, fat, guilty and just and desperate 🤦‍♀️ #dinner #vegan #avocadotoast #recovery #recoveryjourney #anorexiafight #anorexiarecover #anorexianervosarecovery #recoveryanorexia #edrecoveryarmy #edrecoveryjourney #edrecovery #edwarrior #anorexiafighter


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Thanksgiving can be a very stressful holiday for anyone who has eating issues. It’s a food-based holiday, and often brings up lots of insecurities and discomfort. To help yourself, your child(ren) and loved ones have a happier Thanksgiving, take the focus off the food and invest instead in opportunities to connect with each other. Four great ideas are: 1. Get outside - go for a walk, explore a new park, look at trees, make snow angels, analyze clouds. Just get out of the house and into nature together. 2. Play a game - pull out the board games and set ground rules for fair play and good behavior. Pull out the wiffle balls and plastic bats or turn the patio table into table tennis. Play for fun, and play with love! 3. Get crafty - grab construction paper, pens, paper, scissors, glue, feathers, pom poms, glitter, and googly eyes. Buy everyone a mini pumpkin and carve away. Draw silly portraits of each other. Get messy and have fun! Yes, this is for both kids and grownups! 4. Volunteer together - find a cause you care about and do something meaningful. Serve food for the homeless, muck out stalls at an animal sanctuary, pick up trash, make cards for service people overseas, or plan a fundraiser for a Native American organization. 🍁🍁🍁


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Trauma amnesia - & a picture of little J 😍 I used to think I can’t validate what I don’t remember. But it’s not that I don’t remember, it’s that my brain doesn’t remember. My body has kept score my entire life. Maybe I can’t explain the sudden rush of shame I feel when I make a mistake others consider minor. Like when I don’t know how to correctly buckle a carseat because ummm I don’t have kids and I’ve never learned? Maybe I can’t fully comprehend why when men yell, I instinctively cover my ears and then spend hours needing silence and space to recover. I can’t always make sense of my triggers but somewhere along the way, I know a narrative paved that pathway that made old stories feel new. Even if I can’t tell you the old story, my new one is true and valid to me right now. Your trauma is valid even if you can’t name the old story.


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Feeling your emotions allows for you to actually process through them. It may hurt initially but in the end, it is worth it! • • #health #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderawareness #edawareness #eddietitian #eatingdisorderdietitian #beated #edwarrior #emotions #feelings #feeling #dietitian #simplynutrition


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I remember being in fear of my body not being good enough for my partner. Reminding yourself that live goes far deeper than someone’s appearance really makes love feel more accepting. You’ll be loved for who you are not what you look like. #edfighter #edwarrior #recovery #loveyourself


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Squats on squats on squats!! This was my fifth set so if my form is off that’s why lol. If you guys have any tips on how to improve my form please lmk!! The squats felt really good and smooth so I’m happy with it😄 squats were followed by deadlifts, hip thrusts, kettlebell swings and Bulgarian split squats so my legs are TOASTTTT.


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So yesterday I actually finished my work on time and cooked myself to his beautiful salmon for dinner!! so I tried to sleep early (midnight) but couldn’t fall asleep until 3am due to gut pain and insomnia. Honestly my pain has never been this consistently bad for so long before. I skipped my 8:30 this morning because I simply could not get out of bed even though I was already awake from the pain. • Another thing I wanted to talk about briefly is having an eating disorder as an Asian American. I feel like the ed / gut health / body image community on Instagram is predominantly white girls who often have very similar content, which is honestly the main reason I don’t post pictures of my face or what I look like on here. And of the few Asians I do see on social media, all of them either fit the “anime girl” look or the badass “ABG” look, that is to say super small and thin. I don’t mean to be racist, I just feel like I don’t fit into the stereotype and don’t belong a lot. Growing up Asian American, eating disorders were just not really a thing you even dared to mention to anyone—that a person could have a disordered relationship with food is just ridiculous, and usually seen as ungrateful or spoiled. Anyways I don’t know where I’m going with this, just really sleep deprived and sad.


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Have you ever asked yourself what your “why?” is? Your “why” is the reason why you want to heal your relationship with food, even if doing so seems scary. Is it to be able to go for ice cream with your kids or bake brownies with them on a Saturday morning? Is it to be able to go on date night without googling all the menus beforehand and not even being present in the conversation? Maybe because you want your period back to have a family? Or maybe it’s because you want more space in your brain to think about other things beyond food and your body. Whatever it is, write it down. Look at it EVERY SINGLE DAY Knowing your why is what keeps you grounded. What keeps you wanting to fight when you want to retreat back into the safety of your old way of eating or exercising. If you have never thought of your “why” that could be a BIG reason why you aren’t able to make lasting change. You need to get really, really clear on why you WANT to recover. What’s at stake if you don’t I realized that my marriage was at stake. All the nights I spent worrying about the food I ate on date night instead of enjoying the company of a loving husband. All the fun weekends away we never got to take because I wouldn’t let myself miss a workout The arguments we had because everything was always planned around what would make me feel comfortable. That’s my why. He’s my why. I wanted more for our life. He deserved more than that and I wanted to be the fun, free wife that could enjoy being married to my best friend. It kept me grounded. It kept me going even when recovery felt so hard and scary. And, it still does. There will never be a date night that I don’t feel grateful for being present in the conversation because I know how it used to be. And one day, you’ll look back too and realize how far you’ve come and how you’re living out your why❤️ Now tell me, what is your why? #foodfaithfree #orthorexiarecovery #edwarrior


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Herhaal dit voor jezelf: De dingen die ik leuk vind aan de mensen in mijn omgeving hebben niets te maken met hun uiterlijk. In een maatschappij waar veel dingen op uiterlijk wordt gebaseerd en waarin uiterlijk als 1 van de meest belangrijke dingen wordt ervaren – is het ZO belangrijk om jezelf te blijven herinneren aan het feit dat uiterlijk uiteindelijk vrij weinig uitmaakt. Mensen houden niet van jou omdat je een bepaald gewicht weegt of een bepaalde kledingmaat hebt, ze houden van je omdat je JIJ bent. De mensen die jou accepteren alleen maar omdat jij een bepaald uiterlijk hebt zouden geen plekje hoeven hebben in jouw leven. ✨


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@rittersport winter edition, spiced biscuit. - - - If ever there was a day for a winter edition it’s today. I think we can all agree - it’s bloody cold. But I can’t focus on that, I need to rave about this bar. Like most Ritter bars the weight in my hand is immense and the girth! Phew, it’s quite something, the satisfaction of the snap is similar to a kitkat but on some serious steroids. I’m disappointed that there isn’t a smell of Christmas when I peel apart the wrapper but the look of fine smooth chocolate sets me on tenterhooks. With a little trepidation I sing my teeth down, soft at first though the ginger infused milk chocolate and harder when the spiced biscuit hits. The texture is yo die for it’s a little lacking in intensity of flavour but maybe that’s because I like my flavour how I like my men - overpowering and intense.


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actually i stopped sharing my breakfast breakfast bowls because i’m eating same kind of breakfast everyday (cereal, yogurt and fruits) but today i wanna share because there is a huge different. today was the first time i putted more cereal than fruits. my rule was “you have to eat more fruit than cereal”. but today i challenged that rule. cuz things are been serious right now. yesterday my doctor said my heart could stop at any moment. then i understood how is my situation serious. i can’t keep continue to killing myself like nothings happening. i have to fight more harder #ana #anorexiafight #recovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexiasupport #anorexiafighter #ed #fuckyouana #edrecovery #anarecovery #fooddiary #edwarrior #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianervosa #fuckyouana #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryjourney #eatingdisorderawareness #mentalhealth #beatinganorexia #food


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When you fall... Pick yourself up and try again. Try again tomorrow, the next day, and the next day after that. Just don’t give up, even if you feel like your lungs are filled with water and you can’t breathe. A little progress each day adds up to big results. Be gentle with yourself, you’re doing the best you can. Don’t forget that you’re human. It’s okay to have a bad day, week, month and so on. Just don’t unpack and live there in the midst of misery. Sometimes the bad times and things that happen in our lives put us directly on the path to the best things that will ever happen to us. And then it all feels worth it. And you smile. Because each time you chose to stand up again after being knocked down, you grew stronger. And strong is the new pretty.


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queen of eating beige foods 24/7👑 (featuring my peculiar combination of a vegan ham toastie and dry frosted shreddies, because dry cereal is superior)


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MASSIVE nando's challenge the other night & 100% worth the anxiety it was so good!!!😍👌🏻 • Lil analogy for y'all this afternoon❤️ ∙ 𝓝𝓸𝓽 𝓟𝓾𝓼𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓨𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯 in Recovery is like being on a small boat on a river and deciding not to paddle. At first it may be okay, you’re near enough the shore but don’t want to keep going to get there because there’s a lot of rough waters right before it. And you feel okay just being able to see it atleast, considering it was so hard to get here and for so long you couldn’t even see the shore. You decide you just want to stay here, it’s easier & it’s quite an okay place to be especially if it means you don’t need to go through all them rough waters ahead. The only problem is you’re on a river, if you don’t keep paddling to reach the shore, You may stay where you are for a short while, but eventually, you will inevitably start to drift back down the stream. And at first you may not even notice. But before you know it you’re back where you started which is a place you paddled so hard to get out of. And a place you definitely don’t want to be. And That’s why you have to keep going til you reach the shore. 𝓓𝓸𝓷𝓽 𝓖𝓲𝓿𝓮 𝓤𝓹❤️


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Hey, you! Yes, you! I know you feel alone, But I can promise you, You’re not. I know you feel desperate, But I can promise you, It will get better. I know you have bad days, But I can promise you, Good days will come too. I am here Fighting with you, And I can promise you That one day, We will be able to say “We beat it”. . . In the meantime, Keep pushing yourself Towards recovery. I can promise you, It will ALL be worth it.


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Day 261: ⠀ Today’s Terrific Tuesday is starting off with a yummy bowl of cinnamon honeycrisp apple oats! ⠀ #WhatsInMyBowl : @quaker oats topped with @siggisdairy plain yogurt, a warm honey crisp apple coated with cinnamon, pecans, chia seeds, almond butter, cinnamon, and @safeandfair honeycrisp apple pie granola ⠀ While I do have multiple friend plans today that will make today terrific, even if I didn’t have plans I would say it’s a terrific Tuesday. I’m saying this because I’m focusing on positive language, positive words. ⠀ I’ve been reading the four agreements and the first agreement is “be impeccable with your word”, this talks about our use of the word. I’m starting today with remembering this agreement and incorporating it in positive ways in my life. ⠀ I hope you join me and see how you use your word when speaking of today, others, yourself, and life. Keep it positive💖 ⠀ ⠀ No Retreat No Surrender💕 ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ No Retreat No Surrender💕


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You deserve to heal Happy Tuesday ❣️❣️❣️❣️


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19th of November - I am grateful for second chances - I started a job yesterday! I am incredibly excited to be making money and having something to do during the day. But at the same time I am terrified. The place I will be working at requires their crew members to wear jeans, a t-shirt, an apron, and a hat with their hair tied back. I haven't worn jeans in 3 years, I hate how my thighs look so fat in them and I hate exposing my chipmunk cheeks by pulling my hair back. Most of all, I hate not wearing a hoodie. My hoodie has been my protector for a year now. I haven't gone out of the house, even my room without it. And now, I can't wear it. I feel so stuck. But we will see how things go. Today I am going to the store to look for some jeans that hopefully I feel a little bit comfortable in. Wish me luck 😓 - Today for my #breakfast I had some oatmeal with some almond butter :)


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Happy Tuesday! Today for breaky #dEats #whatsinmybowl we have grits with pb powder, banana, dates, cacao nibs, unsweetened coconut flakes, and chia/flax/hemp seeds. Topped with some vanilla honey almond milk. ☺️👌🏼 • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • #edwarrior #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryispossible #edsoldier #edfighter #nourishtoflourish #fuckanorexia #anorexiarecovery #coconutbowl #yum #plantbased #recovery


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168 hours in a week... if you work 40 hours a week... you still have 88 hrs left in your week. 20 hours you'll devote to your family if you have one and 6 hours for sleep.... that leaves 62 hours a week to work on your goals.... may that be on your health, losing weight, writing, building a business etc. Point is you have the time... it just has to become a priority for you. Stop saying Monday, next month or the new year.... if you keep pushing your goals back then Tomorrow will NEVER come. Therefore you will have no success. THE TIME IS NOW!! #fitmom #healthyeats #weightlossjourney #fitnessjourney #transformationtuesday #lifestylechanges #bodybuilding #womenshealth #edwarrior #healthycooking #fitlife #loveyourbody #motivation #doitforyou #dontquit #yesyoucan #healthyliving #getactive


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major #fearfood lunch: REAL scrambled eggs with REAL YOLK, HAM, and... COOKING OIL 🤯🍳 my oh my! i was inspired by the eggs i ate yesterday and wanted to try cooking some myself, an indeed quite satisfying process - cracking a shell (as opposed to measuring out liquid egg whites), hearing the oily sizzle, watching it pop and fry 👩‍🍳 (plus infinite grapes from the carton and daily apple snack for some sweet sweet carbz)


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“Success” is defined pretty narrowly in our culture; it often looks like a constant striving and measurable change towards a defined goal. In the process of healing relationship with food and body, success may seem elusive. In fact, often things feel worse - more chaotic, confusing, and unclear - before they feel better. It’s quite messy! If you are wading through that difficult place on your journey, I hope it helps to be reminded that what you are experiencing is normal and part of healing. Instead of berating yourself for feeling stuck, offer up lots of self compassion for doing an incredibly hard thing. For those of you who are a little further along on the journey - any words of wisdom for those who are feeling stuck and unsure? . . #secondbreakfastapproach #intuitiveeating #haes #healthateverysize #weightinclusivecare #antidiet #atypicalanorexia #atypicalanorexianervosa #atypicalanorexiarecovery #antidietculture #dietrecovery #dietculture #dietmentality #eatingdisorderrecovery #edawareness #edsurvivor #edwarrior #bingeeating #bingeeatingdisorder #bingeeatingrecovery #bodyimage #bodypositive #bulimiarecovery #chronicdieting #fatpositive #nondiet #prorecovery


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JAMAICAN JERK CAULIFLOWER & SWEET POTATO TACOS💥💥💥💥 . . . These tacos are Jamaican me happy mon’😎🏝 And I know they’ll make your tummy especially happy! Also, can we note that I finally posted tacos on a #tacotuesday ?! Slide for my recipe!👉🏼 . . . Today’s Mantra: I am proud of myself.🧘🏻‍♀️🌟 . . . #madelinescookbook


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Being gifted with a sickness bug is possible the most unfair illness when all you try to do each day is not throw up. But hey ho ... a photo of my current state making no attempt to try and fake my horrendous current appearance. I WISH I COULD ACTUALLY ENJOY A MEAL RN.. hopes for tomorrow👍🏼 #highhopes #recovery #edfighter #edwarrior


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I woke up again at 6:00 with nausea and getting sick. In the past, I would restrict my food in hopes that I would lose a few pounds. Now I realize how messed up that is. I know ppl without EDs who do this. It’s just another example of how this culture values thinness over health. Now I feed myself bland foods even though I don’t feel like eating, bc my body still needs nourishment. #recoverywin #edrecovery #edwarrior #realrecovery #dietculturedropout #ednosrecovery #anorexiarecovery #allfoodsfit


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a year ago I turned 14 I woke up at 5 am, unable to go back to sleep I ate my measly bowl of oats with water i thanked and smiled emptily at the few people who remembered my birthday I didn't have a birthday cake I got mad at my dad when he gave me a box of chocolates for my birthday and I packed my bag to spend the first month of being a 14 in a hospital this year I woke up excited I got so many more birthday wishes from relationships I was able to repair over the year my parents brought home a birthday cake I had a phatass slice #noregrets my dad also offered me some chocolates his co worker gave him earlier and I ate those too I am no where near a perfect recovery I won't lie and say that it was easy but god damn I am so much happier I wake up excited for my day and if there's one thing I want you to take out of this post recovery is so worth it It takes time but you just have to keep working on it and don't give up #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatittobeatit #anorexianervosa #anarecovery #ana #recoverywin #recovery #recoveryisworthit #edrecovery #eatingdisorderecovery #eatingdisorder #mentalhealthmatters #beatingana #beatinged #iamstrong #anorexiafighter #edwarrior #positivity #prorecovery #edrecovery #food #snack #edwarrior #mentalhealth #nourishtoflourish #foodie #foodisfuel


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I deletet A LOT of posts concerning my #eatingdisorder and bulimia stuff cuz I feel ashamed. Idk why. 💭🕳It always helped me writing down my feelings and fears about food but rn I just feel like a sick bulimic monster when friends in real live looking at my instagram 👩🏼‍💻🙇🏼‍♀️ I somehow feel really really bad bout this. #dreadlover #dreads #dreadaddict #dreadheads #dreadhead #dreadstyle #blondedreads #dreadlockstyle #beautifuldreads #edfam #eddiary #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfighter #edwarrior #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #girlwithdreads #ootd #ootdshare #ootdmagazine #dreadlocks


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Eating Disorder Recovery 🌒 *Trigger Warning* ✨Post 1/9✨ 🌑I never thought I would share this, but I’ve recently been inspired by the lovely @emmadileeeema and I know that this is something that effects so many, and is actually extremely important that I start speaking about since I’ve started this page. 🌑 My story is long, and so bear with me as I’ll be sharing it over a few posts. I don’t like sharing negativity alone in any form, but just know I’ve come to a lovely place I’ll be speaking about a little later on. 🌑 I’ll start at the beginning. As a kid I was always one of the tiniest. I did ballet since age 4, loved my dancing and went on to competitive gymnastics. Around age ten, I remember becoming self conscious of my body. 🌑 For whatever reason or influence, when we’re all in our little leotards, I got an idea that I was bigger than the other girls and needed to lose weight. I started counting calories and it became quickly obsessive. 🌑 All I thought about was how I was ‘fat’ and I had to be thinner than the other girls. It consumed my mind so much that at 12 I quit all dancing and gym which I had loved so much. I couldn’t concentrate and felt terrible all the time. 🌑 At 14, I took up smoking initially as peer pressure and to be ‘cool’. Soon with the added influence of ‘thinspiration’ on Tumblr, I started down a dark path of my new way of life - starving myself, binging, and repeat. 🌑 Cigarettes and eating as little as possible was my new diet. I would later become so hungry I would snap and eat everything in sight I could get my hands on, feel ashamed and then punish myself with fasting and over-exercising. 🌑 This was all kept going by the toxic ‘voice’ that had gotten stronger and stronger in my mind. There was a dictator living in my head, I was hated by myself. I was ugly, huge, unloved, worth nothing I told myself. This goes so much further for me than to consider this just my ‘ED speaking’. It was pure negativity speaking. It consumed everything I did. ✨ #edawareness #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #yoga


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A little Tuesday morning reminder for anyone who’s feeling like too much, not enough, or feel like they have to hide parts of them to be accepted and loved. The world needs all of you here. You’re allowed to take up space. We need you to take up space! We are all better off when you show up as your most authentic self. The world is lucky to have you in it ✨


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Moje 18. urodziny w ulubionej restauracji, a już za 2 miesiące będę miała 21 lat 😱🥳 Za długimi włosami tęsknię coraz bardziej 😢 Ja dzisiaj mam dłuższy dzień na uczelni i kończę dopiero o 17.00 😒 A jak Wam mija dzień? #throwback#birthday#18thbirthday#old#gettingold#18th#party#vegan#urodziny#weganka#18stka#happy#veganfood#veganism#weganskie#cojedzapolscyweganie#cojedzaweganie#foodporn#foodie#edrecovery#edrecover#edwarrior#healthy#psychologystudent#polishgirl#gymfreak#veganlifter#veganislove#poznan#wypas


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#Repost @theeatingdisordercenter • • • • • Your social media feed should make you feel empowered, NOT inadequate. Challenge yourself to unfollow accounts that are detrimental to your recovery -- your future self will thank you 💖 #edrecovery#ed#recovery#edwarrior#edfighter#edfamily#inpatient#strength#recoverycommunity#eatingdisorders#beated#ana#osfed#anorexia#bulimia#bodyacceptance#depression#quotes#anxiety#awareness#advocacy#bingeeating#orthorexia#fighter#recovered#support#prorecovery#bodypositivity


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We’ve been MIA for almost 2 weeks here on instagram. We are prepping for some awesome months ahead and can’t wait to share with you! Remember to find us on Amazon and on our website🥳


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my neighbourhood 🥺💛✨is so 🥺💛✨cute right now 🥺💛✨ chester during the holidays just hits differently 🥂🎄


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