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You don’t have to post it to prove it. ⁣ ⁣ Not your before pic- stereotypes, promotes the idea that after= cured, neglects people’s traumas, gives the idea of ‘looks’ to a mental illness, promotes the idea of ‘not sick enough’/competition.⁣ ⁣ Not your lowest weight- promotes competition, reinforces the impact of weight in MENTAL illnesses, gives powers to the B.(ullshit)M.I.⁣ ⁣ Not the details of what you used to do when you were engaging in your illness- gives ideas to other people’s ED’s, reinforces the conversation about your beloved ED that loves to be (once again) the center of everything?, unnecessary & doesn’t benefit a single soul. ⁣ ⁣ Not the number of your admissions- hospital seen as ‘necessary’ to be valid, creates the idea of a ‘fun place’/trip (absolutely not), idea that the lower the weight- the more you need hospital; ⁣ Not what you ate today or yesterday or the day before- why do strangers on the internet care? To compare? To give themselves permission to? To eat the same as you? Nobody:⁣ Absolutely nobody:⁣ Someone: ‘here’s a fdoe, is this enough? Please validate me but don’t say it’s too much’ ⁣ ⁣ If people talk shit about you on the internet...let them. They know nothing about your story or what you’ve been through. You don’t owe anything to anyone. Keep your boundaries, and make yourself safe.⁣ ⁣ You know what? Those things you’re posting..on a mh recovery platform...aren’t going to educate anyone? We all know how bad it is, we don’t need all your details to ‘back it up’...#nooffense. We all know how bad it is??? ⁣ I know mh awareness week ended yesterday but WE NEED TO KEEP TALKING ABOUT THESE ISSUES! It’s not a week that suddenly changes everyone’s perspectives on this- no! It’s constant work & awareness. My mental illnesses are as alive today as they were yesterday. ⁣ ⁣ You know what it’s said that everything you say before a ‘BUT’ counts as nothing? Well same if you write about one of the things I said above and then post it with a picture of your before, hospital, tiny meals etc and say ‘but ED’s don’t have a look, you don’t need to go to hospital to be valid, I didn’t eat for like 10 years but you can have an ED and eat’. ⁣ ⁣ 😅🤡😅🤡


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finally summer is here and it's warm enough to wear dresses and t-shirts!! i can't wait for this summer since i've become so confident and positive! also i've been doing loads of things and keeping myself busy with cleaning etc. now that i have so much more energy, i always wanna do something and i can't really sit around anymore since i did that for so many years! i'm finally excited for life and i'm not letting anything stop me! × × × × × #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #edfighter #edrecovery #recovery #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #breakfast #anarecovery #motivation #healthy #dessert #healthylifestyle #vegan #dancer #cosplayer #selflove #pie #veganfood #plantbased #recoverywin #food #foodisfuel #intuitiveeating #fearfood #aesthetic #spring #positivity


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Hello hello welcome to my blog!? In pursuit of fulfillment and joy during this odd phase of life, I decided to start writing! I’ll be using Instagram to share my experience and daily life being #unemployed, #quarantined, and in #EDrecovery.⁠ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⁠ I have been searching for a job since moving to California in February. It was going well initially, and I progressed through interviews with several companies before the pandemic complicated things. None of the opportunities worked out; the employers either postponed hiring or went with candidates who were further along in the process.⁠ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⁠ I was back to square one and have spent every day of quarantine looking for my next opportunity. Although I know this isn’t an ideal time to be job hunting and have been very patient through it all, a week ago I found myself in a low place and had to reevaluate. I realized searching job boards high and low everyday was draining me, stealing my joy, and distracting me from my recovery.⁠ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⁠ I have to understand that my next opportunity just isn’t out there right now and this probably isn’t the time to be advancing my career. Instead I can use this time to nourish my mind, body, spirit, and soul so that I am my best, healthiest self when the right opportunity does roll around. I love to read and have been inhaling books this year, but I never considered writing. I figured I would start here and see where it goes! Hope you come along as I seek to fill my cup with peace and purpose during this season of life. “You can’t pour from an empty cup.” ☕♡


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E sai, tu piccola grande guerriera che ora stai leggendo, ti svelo un segreto. ‘Tutto ciò che vuoi è dall’altra parte della paura’ I #fearfood, i così tanto temuti ‘cibi fobici’, sono solo il riflesso delle paure che abbiamo dentro di noi. A volte temiamo un alimento per ciò che ci ricorda e per le emozioni che ci scatena, perché magari quel gusto ci porta indietro nel tempo... e probabilmente non era un bel periodo. O forse, era un momento talmente felice che non si vuole rivivere, perché se la malattia ti priva di tutto, non vuole farti tornare dove eri stata bene. ‘Non te lo meriti!’, ti dice. ‘Non sei abbastanza per permettertelo’ grida con la sua vocina stridula e persuadente. Ti tiene lontana da ciò che per te è speciale. E se una cosa è speciale, ci sarà sicuramente una magia. Sarebbe bello scuotere una bacchetta magica per tapparsi le orecchie e lasciare andare quei pensieri ingombranti e pesanti che ci logorano dentro. Ma non funziona proprio così, non serve nessuna bacchetta e nessun coniglio bianco uscirà dal cilindro. Volete sapere il segreto? La gioia, la condivisione e l’amore sono la soluzione. Perché la vera magia non ha bisogno di trucchi, brillantini e false speranze. La vera magia è nel sorriso, nel cuore e nell’anima. Si trova nella voglia di divertirsi, di giocare e di dire ‘si’. Si alla vita🌱 Si alle uscite con le amiche💖 Si alle pazzie🤪 Si‼️ Abbiamo bisogno di ascoltarci e di conoscerci. Veramente credete che sia il cibo a spaventarci? Ciò di cui realmente abbiamo paura, è gustarci qualche morso di VITA vera. Perché significherebbe affrontare la realtà con tutte le sofferenze, il giudizio degli altri, le responsabilità e il tempo che passa. Ciò che dimentichiamo però, è che insieme a questo c’è anche la felicità, la soddisfazione, la famiglia e l’amore! Tutto questo, io lo chiamo semplicemente ‘È’ . . . . . . #siamopiufortinoi🏆 #ana #anoressianervosa #anoressia #anorexia #anoressiaitalia #anorexianervosa #anoressianervosaitalia #anoressiarecovery #anorexiarecovery #food #foodrecovery #fearfood #foodporn #foodorgasm #dca #disturbialimentari #edwarrior #edfamily #edfighter #recoveryforlife


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Recovery is all about taking it day by day. Don't worry about tomorrow, just focus on the here and now 💕⁣⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⁣⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #edrecovery #recoveredliving #recoverycoaching


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Numbers! Do! Not! Matter! . During lockdown, I've become used to not seeing so many labels. Generally we are eating mostly home made/home portioned food which isn't measured, so it's tricky for me to work out the nutritional information of what I'm eating. My mum also has been doing the food shop so I can't control what's in the house either. I've found this very helpful, to let go of the tight control my eating disorder has over numbers and just have whatever I feel like/ my family are having. . However today, I am going for a picnic for a friend so went to the shop to get myself a meal deal for lunch. Suddenly the numbers and labels were back, and it panicked me. My mind started thinking about what I would usually have, whether what I was choosing was more than that and therefore what I was 'allowed' to have. . I had to take a step back, and just remember that numbers are literally just numbers, they are absolutely meaningless and should not in anyway influence my decision. I thought to myself 'if these sandwiches had zero calories in them, which one would I want?'. So I picked this, and some crisps and a smoothie, and bought them. . We can't avoid numbers forever, as sadly they are now everywhere. But we can CHOOSE the response we have to them. We can choose to let them control us, or we can choose to ignore them. No, they won't go away, and no, it probably won't feel easy to knowingly eat food with numbers you're not comfortable with. But remind yourself that there is NO TOO MUCH, and a number is only a number. Continue to act as if numbers don't matter, and eventually they won't any more.


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So wer bin ich? Ich bin 24 Jahre jung und habe einen tollen Job, sowie ein super Leben.👋🏻 Ich bin 1,65m groß und das ist auch ok. Meine erste Erkrankung hatte ich mit 14 oder 15 Jahren. Ich nahm in 6 Wochen knapp 10 kg ab und hungerte mich alles in allem binnen eines Jahres von 65kg zu 43kg ➡️ Anorexia Nervosa. So schnell konnte ich gar nicht gucken, wie ich auf dem Sprungbrett in Richtung Tod stand.😬 2 Jahre Recovery und eine Sport-Anorexie später war alles gut. Ich hatte eine toxische Gewaltbeziehung - aber ich hatte konstant süße 57-58kg über insgesamt 5 Jahre und war über den Berg. Dachte ich ☝🏻. ⏩ Ich fing eine neue wunderbare Beziehung an, die bis heute das beste ist, was mir passieren konnte. Wäre da nicht das kleine Detail, dass ich dank meiner letzten Beziehung solche Verlustängste und Minderwertigkeitsgefühle entwickelt habe, dass mich eine dreiwöchige räumliche Trennung (er flog mit Freunden in den Urlaub.. das war leider bereits „vor meiner Zeit“ geplant) derart triggerte, dass Ana mich mit offenen Armen begrüßte und wieder in ihrem Teufelskreis aufgenommen hat.😐 Das war April 2019. Vor über einem Jahr. Seitdem bin ich wieder da. 😪 Ich bin 24 Jahre jung und leide unter Anorexia Nervosa. Erneut. . #essstrungen #essstrung #eatingdisorder #anorexianervosa #anorexiafighter #anorexie #magersucht #dünn #skinny #thin #edfighter #edrecovery #recovery #wlolife #psyche #anorexiadisorder #ana #skinnyfat #anorexianervosarecovery


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Bam! There you are. Again. In your compact. The full-length. The window. The sliding doors. The bus stop. The storefront. The office building entrance. The plexiglass. The elevator. The selfie. The car pulling up. The Facetime call. The Zoom meeting. ...your reflection. It’s everywhere you go. And as much as you may try to avoid seeing your body, it’ll find you. Recovery is a practice in letting your eyes begin to see what is real. Standing in front of your reflection each day (if only for a single minute), and just seeing. Breathing. Crying. Hugging. Feeling. The critical noise will join you, but if you just keep on looking - in time - it will lose it’s power and you will begin to see yourself more clearly. #recoveryispossible #lookandsee #seethetruth #shutoffthenoise . . . #EDwarrior #edfamily #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edsurvivor #edtreatment #anarecovery #miarecovery #orthorexiarecovery #bingeeatingrecovery #womensupportingwomen #womenempoweringwomen #HealingJourney #getloud #bodyconfidence #bodypositive #bopo #mentalhealthawareness #recovery #therapist #edrecoveryarmy #edfighter #bodypositivity #edclinic #eatingdisorderawareness


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do you ever buy new foods which end up staying in the cupboard? the tale of how I overcame this... my cupboards used to be full of foods I’d bought as challenges and hadn’t yet had. Now I’m able to have something I’ve bought the same day no problem, like these chocolate filled biscuits. Of course there are different ways to overcome the fear of trying new foods, but this is how I did it. 𝙄 𝙙𝙞𝙙𝙣’𝙩 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙥𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙩 𝙗𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙚𝙤𝙪𝙨. I got here by planning what I’d have and when with pen and paper. Then when the time came I’d have no excuse to not have the new challenging food. Somehow this process made spontaneity possible now. 𝙄 𝙥𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙚𝙨 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙣𝙖𝙘𝙠, such as watching an episode of something funny, doing some colouring or listening to music. I learnt to tell myself that 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙥𝙚𝙣𝙨𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙛𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙖 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙜𝙚 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙢𝙮𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙫𝙞𝙘𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮. Once I took on that attitude, I had more determination not to compensate which made it easier to break this behaviour. 𝙄 𝙧𝙚𝙥𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙣𝙚𝙬 𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙪𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙡 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨𝙣’𝙩 𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙮. Sometimes 3, 5 or more-than-I-can-count times. If I didn’t want to have a food because it was still scary, that was a sign I needed to. 𝙄 𝙠𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙤𝙥 𝙤𝙛 𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 𝙖𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙧𝙚-𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙧𝙜𝙚. It sucks that fears can re-emerge, but continuing to challenge them is a fabulous way to show the ED our middle fingers. I most recently did this with crisps, lasagne and many a time with two cooked meals in one day. What helps you to try new foods? image description: two chocolate filled biscuits with chocolate chips that mysteriously look like raisins. The background is banana yellow, or earwax or severely dehydrated piss yellow. Take your pick of colour description 😂 #fearfood #newfoods #edrecovery


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Having a secure relationship with food involves not handing over your power and allowing diet culture (and for some, an eating disorder) to take complete control of your eating. The more we try to control our food, the more we lose control - and ourselves - in the process. . Willpower is in the person who challenges their food rules despite feeling really low or afraid. Willpower is in the person who wakes up and eats breakfast after a nighttime binge. Willpower is in the person who orders dessert because they want it even when the rest of the table says “no, no, I shouldn’t”. . Via @bodyimage_therapist . . . . . . #intuitiveeatingofficial #intuitiveeating #intuitiveeatingjourney #edrecovery #edrecoverywarrior #edrecover #edrecoverycommunity #edrecoverysupport #edrecovering #eatingdisordersupport #eatingdisorderrecovery #disorderedeating #disorderedeatingrecovery #orthorexia #orthorexiarecovery #ednosrecovery #bingeeatingrecovery #bedrecovery #bulimiarecovery #bulimiafighter #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiafighter #edfighter #edwarriors #edwarrior #nondiet #antidietrevolution #riotsnotdiets #antidiet #antidietculture


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• real talk• Hey guys! Time for some real talk. So though things may look great on social media I’ve been struggling a bit lately. My eating disorder has controlled a huge space in my head and my thoughts over the past few weeks. Making me act in ways I wouldn’t have done a month ago when I was first discharged after being an inpatient. I’m starting to restrict again and falsify the number on the scale at weekly weigh ins with my therapist (who is definitely on to my ed’s tricks by the way). Life at the moment is filled with anxiety and empty days accompanied by my thoughts and eating disorder. However, I know that I can come through this. I know that I can shine, even if my road to my own success is harder than that travelled by most. Things are sad and lonely right now but that doesn’t mean they will feel this way tomorrow. Now more than ever I feel it is crucial for me to put all of my effort into pulling away from my eating disorder and truely throwing myself into therapy and recovery as best I can. Because I can do this!! Just as anyone reading this who may be feeling just as scared and alone as I am right now. We can do this! That doesn’t mean to say things won’t be difficult, or we won’t cry daily and be thrown into what feels like a never ending world of one anxiety attack after the other. But we will get to a place in our lives that is right for us and in doing so we will create a world comfortable for ourselves and hopefully just as inviting and comfortable for others too! Stay strong lovelies! I believe in you, even if you don’t have the strength to believe in yourself right now x ••• #ibelieveinyou #yougotthis #ibelieveinme #igotthis #realtalk #edrecovery #edawareness #iweigh #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #anorexiarecovery #mentalhealth #edwarrior #anorexia #eatingdisorder #anarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #ed #edfighter #recoveryispossible #intuitiveeating #mentalhealthawareness #prorecovery #recoveryisworthit #anorexiafighter #recoverywin #selflove #bodypositive


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One of the most tragic aspects of eating disorders is that food is not just food, it is a social experience, a way to live traditions, an experience - so being unable to freely eat means missing out on more that just meals. This picture was taken a few months ago when I was hiking in the mountains north of Milan with some friends and we stopped for dinner at a hut where the menu was your typical nutritious and comforting mountain staples: cheese, bread, dense soups and stews, polenta, fried dough, home baked pie, red wine... For someone like me who would spend her days fearing the calories in an undressed salad, this was quite the challenge and I did think for a second when the trip was being planned that I couldn't do it, that I shouldn't go. But then I did go. I sat down with friends and laughed and talked, and had fun, and created memories over cheesy polenta and pizzoccheri valtellinesi. Don't let your ed keep you from living your life fully. #edrecovery #edfighter #edrecoveryjourney #foodislife #eattobeatit #eatingdisordersupport #eatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiasucks


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The perfect roasted potatoes. Chop and wash them throughly until the water runs clear, boil them in water for 5 minutes (with a tablespoon of vinegar and a pinch of salt), tap them dry, season with salt, pepper, fresh herbs and olive oil and bake for 45 minutes. #nofearofcarbs #fearfoods #eatwhatyourbodyneeds #eatwhatyourbodywants #nourishdontpunish #edrecovery #edrecoveryjourney #edstruggle #edfighter


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Steeds verder hoop ik mezelf te accepteren hoe ik ben... En dit is een deel ervan, 't accepteren dat ik nou eenmaal littekens heb. En ik schaam me ervoor en vind 't ook stom dat ik ze heb, gelukkig heb ik mezelf al een tijdje geen pijn meer gedaan en daar ben ik trots op!! . #positiverecovery #sadlife #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #lifeisgood #genieten #beatana #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodrecovery #goforrecovery #recoverywin #beated #edfighter #edfamily #prorecovery #edfamiliy #edwarrior #landgoedschagerwaard #anorexiawarrior #anawarrior #foodisgood #anafighter #recoverywin #staystrong #workinghard #depressie #recoverycommunity #recoverytime #depression


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I’ve been doing something scary for the past couple of weeks! Spices and herbs have always been a huge fear for me for a number of reasons- I worry that I’ll pick the wrong flavours or stuff up the meal with them and “waste” it and, given that I have ibs + fodmap malabsorption, I associate flavourful food with causing pain, which makes me even more reluctant to try things out. But I’ve been adding rosemary into my roasted vegetables and I’ve found that it’s actually delicious. I celebrated this with my psychologist on Friday too 😊


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I never really feel like I’m not sick enough to recover anymore, but sometimes I still get some feelings of guilt for writing about my recovery and eating disorder experience when it wasn’t “as bad” as *insert random persons name*. It’s true, once I started real recovery, things went rather smoothly. Sometimes I see the hopelessness and perceived powerlessness of others suffering from eating disorders and I forget that I too struggled with that. Yet, I was never hospitalised, I never had someone force me to recover, I rarely, if ever, cried about meals. But I was still disordered. My life still revolved around food and skipping meals. I still lost the feeling of actually living and loving in desperate attempts to avoid having to eat. I still suffered an eating disorder. But still, I sometimes wonder if I’m “faking it” or exaggerating it and whether perhaps I should just stop talking about it. But I should not, and you shouldn’t either. Your writing and talking should first and foremost serve a purpose for you. And even then, if you were to write it for others, there are thousands of people out there who share the same experience. There are many people who experience or have experienced an ED, even when they did not experience certain aspects of it, like you did. Your voice and story matter. It’s unique in many ways, but the same in so many others. And just like their story of those whom you feel were “sicker than you” does’t invalidate yours, your story doesn’t invalidate theirs. When you talk about your experience with your ED, you are not saying that the things they experienced which you didn’t aren’t actually happening to them or suck. And just because they experienced things which you didn’t, doesn’t mean the things you did experience weren’t painful as hell. So please, lets keep the conversation going. Lets talk about it. Lets not shut up because we don’t feel sick enough, because we are sick enough. And we deserve a voice too. It’s important that your story is heard, for you, and for all of those who struggled with the same things you do, including “not feeling sick enough”. You deserve to be listened to. You deserve not to feel alone. 💕


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There will be times where you won’t like what you see in the mirror. There will be times when you really struggle to focus on your redeeming features rather than picking out your flaws. That is ok, as long as you know that regardless of what you see in your reflection, that you are deserving of love, kindness and respect. Whether your body is big, small, curvy, athletic, tall, short, busty, flat - it’s precious, it’s desirable, and it should be treated well. It has carried you through your life thus far, overcome all obstacles that have been thrown at it. Sometimes you won’t be happy with your body, but as long as you know that your appearance is not a measurement of how much respect and admiration you ought to receive, then you can get through those low days. Because external aesthetics should not play a factor in how we judge or treat what’s inside 💖


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Friday morning I saw my heart on an ultrasound and had a whole major realization of this little beating thing I need to keep strong. My Dr called me today to check in and it was the sweetest thing. Please make sure you have a good team around you that reminds you how necessary you are 🌻 (This weekend was extremely hard so I got in my car & drove 3 hours to visit my grandparents; turns out it’s my grandpa’s birthday tomorrow and the timing couldn’t be more perfect 💕 so thankful for the little things) x


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•No matter who you are, you’ve probably struggled with comparison. This was a HUGE issue for me in recovery. Comparison never brings joy, only judgment. • • • • Our ED’s thieve us of joy by comparing our own bodies, intakes and illnesses to others. Its unproductive and destructive.• • • • So how do we escape this? Interrupting your automatic thoughts. Stop teaching your brain that others actions are important! • • • • Your the only one having desert, so what. Your friend hasn’t had breakfast. And? Your Mum is on a diet. What dobI care? • • • • Everyone is different, everyone is unique. Once you realise “You are on your own path” (Thanks Han @han_beats_an ) , no one else’s life can dictate your own happiness.


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MORNING EVERYONE 💕 HAPPY BANK HOLIDAY MONDAY! It's a gorgeous morning here today the sun is shining and it's gonna be a hot one 🔥 I'm starting off my dsy by making Ana go SNAP CRACKLE AND POP! 🤯 By having a bowl of rice krispies 🥣 drowned in milk 🥛 and a spoonful of SUGAR 😍 and 2 pancakes 🥞 plus a glass of apple juice 🍏 I hope you all have a BRILLIANT BANK HOLIDAY! AND STAY SAFE! ❤️ #goingtoeatwhatiwantto#recoveryispossible#recovery#prorecovery#recoveryistheonlyoption#countblessingsnotcalories#curvesnotcalories#curvesnotbones#healthynothungry#determined#anorexic#eatingdisorderrecovery#edfighter#edsoldier#fighter#nevergiveup#nomoreanorexia#nourishnotpunish#strongnotskinny#charversesana#edcommunity#eatclean#cleaneating#edfamily#realrecovery#f4f#recoverywin#eatittobeatit#fuckana#gainingweightiscool


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you think about food all the time. you obsess over when, what, and how much you are going to eat. you feel you need to exercise to deserve food, and are scared of what would happen if you ‘gave in’ and just let yourself eat whatever and whenever you wanted. yet still, you’re “not sick enough”…or so you think. . if you made it this far, chances are you relate to any or all of the above; your life revolves around food and exercise and trying to control your body and manipulate your weight. but because you are not as skinny as Slim Kim or don’t have a BMI under X or are still “able” to eat a pizza (even if you feel guilty afterwards) doesn’t mean you don’t need help. . if ANY aspect of your life is compromised by an eating disorder, you are sick enough. you are sick enough and you need help. there is no MOLD you have to fit in to have an eating disorder, and there is most definitely no “definitive point” you need to be at to reach the state of “sick enough”. . in fact, that you even THINK you are not sick enough, simply justifies how sick you really are. eating disorders play several tricks on us, one of them being the incapability to see how sick we really are. when i was in the throes of my ED, i didn’t see it. sure, i was AWARE that my obsession with food and exercise were a bit extreme, but FAR from extreme enough to need treatment. i knew that *most people* don’t have panic attacks every day, but at least i wasn’t having panic attacks EVERY second of the day… . your eating disorder will always come up with excuses that make you believe you’re not sick enough. your eating disorder will forever try to control you. but it’s up to you to show it who’s boss. . . . . . #weightrestored #anorexiarecovery #anorexiaproblems #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisordertreatment #refeeding #anorexiafighter #disorderedeating #orthorexia #orthorexiarecovery #askforhelp #caloriecounting #allbodiesaregoodbodies #edfighter #ednos #sickenough #dietculturedropout #bodyliberation #bodyposi #healyourselffirst #normalizeallbodies #ditchthediet #gezondevoeding #bewustleven #eetstoornisherstel #recoveringdutchie #recoverywin #eatforabs #wellnessjourney #edrecoveryquotes


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Trying. Update: gonna be here another night but if no mental health bed comes up I'll probably be going home, which is both great and not good at the same time. I've been feeling a lot of bad stuff today, my head has been hard and coping my the healing in my neck pressing on my trachea causing panic is really hard. I'm scared that if I go home before I can cope well with it I'll have a panic attack at home and mum will tell me to "stop it" again. #inpatient #hospital #edfighter #edwarrior #recoveringaussies #anxiety #anxietyrecovery #socialanxiety #generalizedanxietydisorder #anorexianervosa #depression #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #anorexiarecovery #depressionrecovery


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I'm Muslim and proud Do not judge Islam from the media . . . #photography #marrakech #qouran #marrakech #mosque #ramadan #edfighter #2020


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👋🏽 As an Eating Psychology Coach, I help individuals understand and fix underlying emotional aspects of disordered eating habits. ⠀ ⠀ "I had to learn acceptance instead of avoidance and pushing away- whether it's people, food, feelings or life." - Eight keys to recovery.⠀ ⠀ 💯 To resolve issues around food and eating, one needs to address the thoughts and feelings that might be suppressed and avoided for many years. ⠀ ⠀ Your body knows what it needs. It's the anxious mind that interrupts the dialogue.⠀ ⠀ 💯 Once the mind is at peace, healthy eating does come naturally!⠀ ⠀ DM for more info!⠀


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Ok so been thinking and taking up a new hobby has made me realise there’s more to me and life than an Ed diagnosis . Like maybe that is obvious to you- that you’re more than you’re eating disorder. Or maybe you were like me and it started to feel impossible to tell where you began and the eating disorder ended . Just had a little realisation lately since taking up a bit of photography that I have more to offer the world and it has more to offer me!! . Ft. Some snaps from today #edrecovery #recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #edfighter #edfam #recoverywarrior #recoverywarriors #recoveryispossible #wegotthis2020


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⤴️Pudding Oats Ich heiße Lara, bin 15 und habe Bulimie und eine mittelschwere depresssive Episode. Ich liebe Pudding Oats, Eis, Obst und Gemüse 🍒🥦🥣🍦 Bald werde ich in der Schönklinik Prien aufgenommen (ich hab schon ziemlich Angst🥺 aber ich freue mich auch schon drauf) Genießt den Tag❤️ (auch wenns ein Montag ist) 😜 #schnklinikroseneck #bulimia #edfighter #edwarrior #bulimiarecovery #schnklinikprien #lieblingsessen


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ohh i wish i would have more time before school to make me waffles for breakfast againnnn😋🍓 Someone maby wanna get up very early and come over tomorrow morning?🙏🙌 Btw would you be interested in the recipe?😏 ~ Guuuten Morgen ihr Lieben🤗 ich wünsche euch einen guten Start in die neue Woche. Diese Waffeln gab es leider nicht heute bei mir zum Frühstück. Dafür fehlt mir dann vor der Schule leider doch die Zeit😂 Dafür gibt es später in der Schule einen leckeren cookie dough😍 Soll ich das Rezept für die Waffeln noch posten?😏 #tb #breakfast #snack #waffles #soulfood #vegan #veganfood plantbased #anorexia #ed #edfighter #recovery #realrecovery #schnklink #schnklinkbadaroslen #keepfigthing #staystrong #gettingstronger #yoga #yogaquotes #yogagirl #mindful #achtsamkeits #selfcare #selflove #positive #thoughts


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Il coraggio non è l'assenza di paura, quella si chiama incoscienza. Essere coraggiosi vuol dire avere paura di qualcosa e farla comunque. ~(Giovanni Falcone)~ Buon lunedì ❤️☀️ #beautiful #bestoftheday #brave #healthyteam #sunday #icecream #foodblogger #foodporn #napolifoodporn #italyfoodporn #siamopiufortinoi🏆 #edfighter #edfamiliy #edrecovery #bulimia #disturbialimentari #eatingdisorder #eatclean #fitfam #fighters #healthyfood #quotes #positivevibes #dieta #monday #foodlover


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You have two choices. You can listen to the ED voice and shrink yourself. Your life becomes smaller and smaller, and your mind and body become so small that you barely exist anymore. You follow ED’s rules, you stick to your safe routines, and one day you cease to exist altogether. Or... You choose recovery. You choose warm May evenings sitting outside for dinner. You choose s’mores made with Reese’s cups because that’s how your mama taught you. You choose brunch with your siblings to celebrate your birthday. You choose freedom over fear. You choose liberation over restriction. You choose life over death. You choose recovery, again and again, day in and day out, until it’s just the way you live. It’s your choice. What you do today, right now, is a decision for the kind of life you want to live. Choose wisely. #edfighter #edwarrior #edrecovery #recoverywarrior #allinrecovery


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An update (major trigger warning mentions ed behaviors) / \ Hey guys i know it's been a while. I really wanted to do this sooner but I was afraid I'd trigger other people to fall down the same hell-hole I fell into. After I became weight restored, just as I had previously planned, I relapsed into my old anorexia behaviors. I feel back into quasi recovery, which sucks ass by the way. I started counting calories, exercising everyday, and turning my back on the world. I’m eating enough to maintain my weight, no more or no less. I’m telling my treatment team that it's fine, that I’m doing great and I’m so happy when in reality i’m kinda breaking down in the food department. I restrict. And it’s really hard not to. I can not separate my anorexia voice from my recovery voice, and the line between them dims everyday. I’m trying my best to keep hope that soon my mind will heal and this damn disorder will leave me. Thank you for listening to my vent haha. I love you all and I hope your recovery is going well :)


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The problem isn’t you, the problem is the therapy. The problem isnt the therapy, the problem is how the therapy is delivered. 🛋 I’ve been mulling this over for the past few days, and I know it will go against a lot of my posts, where I commend and acronymised many esoteric therapies. CBT CRT CFT DBT EMDR roDBT TFT FBT NT MBT TA IPT CAT DIP. One of these does work? That’s okay - try another. 🛋 I’m no stranger to therapy l, from an intellectual perspective and as a client. I’ve had good and bad therapy, from brief skills based sessions through to almost a year of depth work. I want to point out that even my most brief therapy with therapists I didn’t care for was still helpful in its own way, but providing 10 sessions of problem solving work is insulting to the therapist and any client with a history of longstanding distress. 🛋 I’ve realised that a lot of therapy is about the processes between you and your therapist. Different parts of the psyche may have different names, and the language used my be different, but on a very broad level, understanding how you feel your feelings and how you connect to other people is the key. Most of the cognitive therapies could be boiled down to “why am I feeling this way? Is it helpful?” 🛋 Criticism of an individual therapy for being too superficial or too prescriptive (i hear this about CBT a lot) is caused by the fact that NHS practitioners are asked to provide therapy at capacity, on a strict timeline, with little scope for nuance or the “core work” that is a big part of CBT proper. I’ve also seen DBT bastardised as a 12 week skills course (with no provision for a full dialectical program with individual therapy afterwards). 🛋 If there was the time and qualified professionals available, most of the therapies above could be applied in a client focused way, rather than a cookie cutter/worksheet approach. Someone trained in dynamic therapy, but able to provide cognitive interventions or mindfulness exercises for example... 🛋 I’m not trying to discredit brief talking therapies, more point out that you can’t say CBT “doesn’t work for you” when you never got a proper taste of it, and that perhaps you need something deeper.


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Happy Sunday! Today was another day of new(ish) foods. Two months ago, I lay in bed crying because I felt so guilty for having a muffin and a slice of cake on the same day. I had been so good the week before. Why did I have to screw up all my progress? My mind was flooded with worries about how I was going to wake up heavier the next day. I was angry at myself for my lack of discipline. I had both of those foods today, and while I admit I don't feel great now, I know that it will get easier. Keep fighting, guys! ♡ • • • #ed #eatingdisorder #anorexia #recovery #recovering #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #edrecoverywarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryjourney #recoverywarrior #edwarrior #edfighter #recoverywin #eatittobeatit


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Today is a day I just had to give in.⁣ ⁣ ⁣ One thing I had to remember, I am going to bloat. The kind where you look in the mirror and go, “𝘎𝘦𝘦𝘻, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶. 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝟸𝟺 𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘨𝘰”.⁣ ⁣ 𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐚 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐥. 🙊🙊🙊🙊⁣ ⁣ So today I told myself, embrace it because shit happens. 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘎𝘙𝘌𝘈𝘛 𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘺. However, the only way to get you through it is taking the day on with a smile.⁣ ⁣ 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐮𝐥. 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐬𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐭. 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠. 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐩𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐮𝐥!⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ #anorexia #bodydysmorphia #eattingdisorder #doubtingoneself #choosetobehappy #edrecovery #bodypositive #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #mentalhealth #edwarrior #anorexia #eatingdisorder #anarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #ed #edfighter #bulimiarecovery #recoveryispossible #anorexiafighter #bloating #bloatedbelly #bloated #recoverywin #selflove #bulimia #strongnotskinny #bodypositive #edfam


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⭐️𝔽𝔻𝕆𝔼⭐️ . 🏵☀️🏵☀️🏵 . 𝔹𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕜𝕗𝕒𝕤𝕥: Porridge and a coffee 𝕃𝕦𝕟𝕔𝕙: Beans and sausage on toast 𝔻𝕚𝕟𝕟𝕖𝕣: Quorn chicken burger, Sweet Potato Mash and Peas . ☀️🏵☀️🏵☀️ . Another FDOE today I’m sorry I haven’t been really active lately I haven’t been sleeping very well and my mood has constantly been down but I’m feeling much better now and staying positive my Nan and mum are here to support me my mum came down today with a surprise my dog cocos baby I have only seen her in photos and videos it made me so happy to see her in real life she is so cute I wasn’t able to hold her tho which was really annoying but it gives me another thing to do after lockdown see the puppy and catch up with my family 💛 . ☀️🏵☀️🏵☀️ . I think a new therapist is calling me today where which makes me extremely anxious because it’s already bad enough meeting a new person in person it’s extremely terrifying to do it over the phone 😬 I’m really sacred I’m not 100% sure it’s today it might be on Thursday I’ll just have to wait 😬💛 . ☀️🏵☀️🏵☀️ . #fdoe #latepost #recoverywin #recoverywarriors #recoverywarrior #recovery #recovering #recoveryjourney #edrecovery #edrecovering #edfighter #edfight #edwarrior #anafighter #anarecovery #anarecovering #anarecoverymealplan #strongerthanmyeatingdisorder #anorexiafight #eatingdisorderfighter #anorexiarecover #eatingdisorderecovery #anorexiafight #anorexiarecovering ⭐️⭐️⭐️


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다이어트는 8할이 식단인거같다... 저때 독하게 먹고 한동안 풀은 쳐다도 보기 싫었어😣


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I'm supposed to be in L.A right now, graduating from college on stage but...I guess this will do. ⁣ Harry's interview with Zane Lowe, tofu pad thai, & alone time. LET'S GOOO. 🥰🥰🥰⁣ ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #anorexiarecovery #mentalhealth #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #anarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #ed #edfighter #bulimiarecovery #recoveryispossible #intuitiveeating #mentalhealthawareness #prorecovery #recoveryisworthit #anorexiafighter #recoverywin #selflove #food #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #antidiet #edfam


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NEW BLUEBERRY THEME SNACK 😍 Some exciting new snacks I’ve been wanting to try for ages!! Night Snack:⭐️ @lindahls_uk Kvarg Yogurt Blueberry and Vanilla Flavour and Asda Blueberry Muffin Fibre One Bar 👌 Plus a Vanilla Almond Milky Coffee ☕️ Omg YASS 😮 Finally got my hands on the blueberry Kvarg which I have been searching for for so long but when my mum agreed to do an Asda order I was so excited as I knew I could get one! And I also ordered these blueberry muffin fibre one bars which I have been dying to try it for so long as well just we don’t shop at Asda and that as does own as I was so excited when they came yesterday! I see @nourisht0flourish have them all the time and they always look so yummy plus I love anything blueberry flavoured say I had high expectations!… And they did not disappoint The blueberry muffin bar was insane! Actually much better than the normal fibre one bars 👌 soft dense and chewy with sweet blueberry pieces and a white chocolate 🍫 vanilla flavour drizzle on top! And it went perfectly with the blueberry Kvarg yoga which was equally divine! I think the blueberry is the best favourite I have tried yet but I love anything baby flavoured still so smooth creamy and thick with a lovely sweet blueberry flavour and just a hint of vanilla a winning flavour combo and I got a serious blueberry muffin vibes from this snack it was so lush! 😟 I was very anxious to use these fibre bars already as I only got them yesterday and I feel the need to save them as I can’t get any more of them for awhile as we don’t have an Asda near us but I was really excited to try them and that’s what they’re there for so I know it’s just another way anorexia is controlling me so I decided to go against! After not doing much all day I didn’t feel like I deserve a snack which I really wanted but there is no perfect time to have anything so if not now when? Had this much later than planned as well so I was quite on edge and was feeling guilty after a really challenging enough but I was determined to stick to my plan and not restrict! So bad my Banging Blueberry theme which made my head scream but who care as it was the dream 💯


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Well tonight is a very special night! Tonight is a well needed date night with my boyfriend! We may be in a long distance relationship but that won't stop us from having a fun date! We are having burgers and drinks while watching a new Netflix comedy! Ever since I had those @traderjoes shrimp burgers the other day I've been dying to make a big burger with them! So I put spinach, onions, tomatoes, pickles and mustard on my shrimp burger. Then I'm having a side of broccoli, cauliflower and cinnamon sugar grapefruit that I broiled! A big goal of mine during recovery was to get to a point where I can intuitively eat during a date night. I also wanted to get to a point where I wouldn't regret the date night. I can definitely say I'm at a point in my recovery where I'm not worried about the dinner anymore. I'm more excited and feel relaxed enough to have a great night with the love of my life ❤️ . . . #edfighter #datenight #armygirlfriend #longdistancerelationship #ilovemyboyfriend #shrimp #shrimpburger #grapefruit #broccoli #cauliflower #burger #dinner #dinnerplate #healthyeating #foodphotography #recoverygoals #eatingdisordertreatment #eatingjourney #disorderedeating #disorderedeatingrecovery #bigaccomplishment #bingeandrestrictcycle #bingeeatingdisorder #restrictiveeatingdisorder #netflixandchill #intuitiveeatingofficial #traderjoes #intuitiveeating #foodstagram #bodydosmorphia


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Smashing a Satay Stirfry 💥. Dinner: Tofu and Edamame Satay Noodles with Spinach 😉. I saw @thenextpaige__ make this and I thought it looked amazing! ✨ so when she posted the recipe I just had to try it and I had some tofu to use up so I thought I would make it for dinner tonight…‼️ I was meant to have it last night but I didn’t have any noodles but luckily dad managed to get me some today and I was grateful for this but then I suddenly became really anxious as I know if you didn’t get me any I meant I could’ve avoided this again as this was such a challenging meal and I regretted asking for them but if it doesn’t challenge you it doesn’t change you... please I push myself to make them as they tasted incredible! 😃 it’s not actually what was on the menu it was meant to be a chicken stirfry but I guess it’s still kind of Chinese themed… I bake the tofu in the oven again so it was slightly crispy 😋 but the start of the show it was in the noodles! I haven’t had noodles in ages and they are definitely my favourite carb even though I find them really scary as anorexia said it’s an unhealthy carb but I need to prove that there is nothing wrong with them! The source was so PENG With peanut butter flavour made with @myproteinuk peanut butter powder soy sauce garlic and ginger and had so much flavour… I especially like the addition of Edamame beans Which I have never cooked myself before they had such a nice nutty flavour and of course spinach is always a winner… It felt wrong not to have vegetables on the side and anorexia convince me it wasn’t healthy enough but realistically I know there’s a whole bag of spinach and the beans in this so it’s just another stupid rule which I know breaking will only help me become stronger 💪 Anorexia was screaming at this was unhealthy and fattening as it was denser than some of the dinners I’ve been having recently but I just need to get the stupid numbers out of my head… I love Asian cuisine and trying new recipes so even though this dinner made me feel so guilty 😔 it was worth it! Will definitely be making again ✅ and thanks Paige for the inspiration 💕


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Lunch: 😁. Tuna 🐟 Mayo Sandwich 🥪 with cucumber 🥒 You can’t beat a good tuna sandwich and it was a large can of tuna than usual but I didn’t listen to the thoughts and ate it all! Even used a top slice of bread‼️ this was so filling but I smashed it ✔️


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Breakfast; 🥣 @kelloggs.uki Bran Flakes and SS Milk 🥛 Challenged myself to a different cereal as variety I’d key 🔑 it was a new fresh box which made them even more crunchy and yum 👍


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During a session today, I asked my client to ponder and journal on this question: “If you were a head without a body, how would you cope with how you are feeling?” It made me think about the poll I posted on my instagram story a few nights back. I asked whether or not people would still work out if it did not change their body. Checking back before the poll timed out, over 80% of the people who answered that question said no. I’ve been processing this the past few days and wanted to share my thoughts. Movement/exercise, bodies and food themselves are all very neutral things - and all pretty amazing if you ask me. None of them are in any way inherently bad. What happens is that without realizing it, we have relationships with all of these things. Our relationships can be healthy or unhealthy depending on our journeys and self-awareness, environment, education and many other factors. The problem with associating exercise primarily with asthetic changes calls to question what is fueling the standard to which we are striving. Is it a culture with ever changing standards of attractiveness/accepted body sizes and shapes/constantly moving targets of “good enough”? Is it unresolved emotional pain that you’re dodging with a constant distraction that forces you to keep reaching for more? Is it an association of superiority of certain body types or life styles? I truly believe it is possible to have a healthy relationship with movement and exercise. I do think too though that it takes work, awareness, practice and boundaries. Just like in a relationship with another person, we try to be aware of interactions that meet our needs and feel good and ones that do not. With things like exercise we must explore what the needs we are trying to meet are - and what exercise is truly doing for us. We then need to explore thought patterns, self-talk and expectations surrounding it. Do you feel guilt and shame when you miss a work out? Do you look in the mirror or hop on the scale after time at the gym and feel like a failure? If so, it might be time to start setting some boundaries. It may also be time to clean out your social media fitspo. Pt. 2 of this convo tmrw!


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What a beautiful morning it is, my lovelies! ☀️Today marks DAY 25 on this recovery journey of mine. Yet another day closer to my first month mark! ⁠💪🏻🔥⠀ ⠀ Yesterday wasn't as productive as i'd ideally hoped.. The weather was so awful that we couldn't even make it outside. So, we spent the majority of the day in bed watching movies... and that's A-OKAY‼️✊🏻⠀ ⁠⠀ I'd usually stress this as being an "unproductive" (bad) day, fixating on all that I could've achieved within that 24 hours. BUT, i'm slowly learning to be kinder and overall gentler with myself. I'm an absolute die-hard perfectionist, so it DOES NOT come easy to me... regardless, i'm trying my hardest, and slowly getting there. One day at a time!⁠ 🙌🏻⠀ ⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀ Enough chat, let's get down to BREAKFAST! ⁠🙏🏻⠀ ⁠⠀ You guessed it - another day, another smoothie bowl! I'm finding it super helpful (mind and body both) to endeavour to have a lighter breakfast the day following a fear-food challenge. An effort on my part to not push myself TOO far too quickly, and maintain a good balance within my meals day-to-day. ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ REALLY, I just favour experimenting with gorgeous smoothie bowl concoctions each morning.. 😂😍⠀ ⠀ ⁠No morning updates/greeting this-morning, as alas, the power’s out (as is my wifi) and its taking waaay too long to upload via 4g. 🖕🏻⠀ ⠀ Regardless, check out this-morning's exceedingly BLUE smoothie bowl concoction! If you hadn't already noticed - I'm really loving my blue spirulina powder right now.. ⁠ 💙💙💙⠀ ⁠⠀ Have a lovely day beauties. Stay tuned - I'll be posting again soon! ⁠❤️🤗⠀ ⁠⠀ ⁠⠀ 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀ ⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀ Follow my health journey @rediscovering.em 💕🙏🏻💕🙏🏻💕⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀ ⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀ ⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀ All my 💜 and ✌🏻out;⠀⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀ Em xx⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀ .⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀ .⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀ .⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀⠀⁠⠀ .⠀ #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisordersurvivor #eatingdisorderfighter #edrecovery #edfighter #edwarrior #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #bulimiarecovery #wellnesswarrior #recoverywarrior #realcovery


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✨Remember when you were a child and you looked at life in total wonder and awe? Life was magical and exciting, and the smallest things were utterly thrilling to you. You were fascinated by the frost on the grass, a butterfly fluttering through the air, or any strange leaf or rock on the ground. 🦋 Reindeer could fly, there were fairies in the garden, pets were like people, toys had personalities, dreams came true, and you could touch the stars. Your heart was full of joy, your imagination knew no limits, and you believed that life was magical! 🌟🧚🏻 You can still believe in that magical life. Never stop dreaming. Never stop believing. Always believe in the impossible and forever be grateful for what you have and the magic will continue to pour into your life. 🌻 . . . . . #bodypositive #healingfoods #plantbased #healthcoach #bodylove #intuitiveeating #motivation #disorderedeating #mindfuleating #bodywisdom #dietculturedropout #travel #beachlife #healingfoods #healthandwellness #nutritionist #healingjouney #iinhealthcoach #toneitup #tiucommunity #breakawaymovement #healingjourney#vegan #iamenough #healingfoods #edfighter #loveyourself #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness


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Mood right now. What a pathetic loser I am. #edfighter #edwarrior #edrecovery


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🥀 I've been very much conflicted in the last weeks or so.. . . Tests and consultations with my doctor confirm that I'm going through first stages of menopause. It's Just.Too.Soon. . . I spent most of my 20s and 30s with amenorrhea, and then my periods came back a few years ago after a couple stints in inpatient treatment. In this past year, i've had a horrendous time trying to figure out what my hormones are doing. And now Mother nature is expecting me to deal with "the change?" I know I can't fight the natural course of aging, but I just wish things would "settle" and I can just live my life in peace. Moreover, ngl - the prospect of gaining more weight due to "lower metabolism" is also scaring me a bit. But deep down inside I know these thoughts are borne out of ED-driven fears and from a brain that is still not fully healed. And besides, what am I going to do, spend even more of my precious years fighting my body and resisting change? Hell to the NO. I've fought long and hard to heal my relationship with food and my body, so I cannot be derailed by what will naturally happen for all women (in due time). . . Thanks for letting me vent. I'm going to continue to keep my resolve strong and do the next right things. Some days it's easy, some days are f**ing hard. But I have the ability to LIVE and flourish onward.


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Happy belated #fearfoodfriday, which we have renamed #sundaysundaes 🤪 So glad to have @dianasrecovery to do this w/ me every week. Hope your mouth waters to see our ice cream sundaes! dEATS - Frozen banana + @fage Greek yogurt + @lovemyphilly whipped cream chz + goat chz + vanilla + lemon blended & frozen & topped w/ granola & frozen raspberries - Taunton’s gourmet ice cream 😜 w/ choc pretzels & Diana’s signature strawbs . . . . . . . . . . #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #neda #anorexiafighter #foodisfuel #nourishyourself #nourishtoflourish #eatittobeatit #plantbased #healthyfood #cleaneats #selfcare #foodaesthetic #fearfoodchallenge #fearfood #strongnotskinny #edwarrior #edfighter #healthy #icecream #dessert #cheesecake #foodfreedom #icecreamsundae #treatyoself


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A letter from my future self... Dearest Present, I know it is hard for you to picture me right now. It is nearly impossible. I don’t blame you, at all. The future seems merky, it seems so far away, it seems like it is impossible to reach. It is a fog that is so dense, it doesn’t allow you to see past it. But I promise it exists. I exist. I know how hard you are working to become me. I see you when you struggle, I hear you when you cry, I am holding you when you want to give up. I see your courage. I see your fight. I see your determination. And I promise it will not go to waste. I thank you for it. Because I am here. I am free. I know you started treatment because you could not continue the life that you were living. You were tired, exasperated, hanging on the last thread. I am here to tell you that that life - that life is gone. You will not be living the life that you were living. You will be recovered. You will enjoy life. You will generally feel content, and fulfilled with your life. You will be living a life that is worth living, one that is according to your values and your passions. You will one day be living your dreams and hopes that you have right now, and continue dreaming for the future, because you know it is worth it to dream. You will feel taken care of. You will be able to stand up for yourself, and what you need. You will know who you are; not by your eating disorder or diagnoses, but instead by your own Self. You will be compassionate to yourself, and understand that you aren’t perfect, yet you don’t have to be - after all, no one is. You will have healthy connections and support to reach out to. You will not be alone. You will feel and be alive. (cont in com)


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Tried keto and thought you failed? Think again! Recovery Coach Karen shares why diets like the keto diet do not work and what to ask ourselves when we experience this 😉⁣⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #edrecovery #recoveredliving #recoverycoaching


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Let’s talk about growth. For so many months I’ve been obsessing over the fact that my thighs have grown. My whole body is different now. As the summer heat creeps in, more of my skin will be shown. All the while, my brain tries to tell me to hide my body. The facts are hard for my eating disorder and yet the facts are true. My thighs have grown, in fact my whole body has grown during my recovery. AND that’s OKAY. Because as much as my body has grown during this recovery process I have grown as a person too. My mind works better. My thoughts are clearer. I feel more passionate about my values and the numbness I felt has subsided. On the inside and out I am growing. Growing is good.


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BODY KINDNESS (ft random pic☝🏻) Where did we get the idea that we have the right to pass comment on another’s shape or size? Don’t get me wrong, I like an appearance-related comment as much as the next person but experience has made me more conscious of the potentially negative impact seemingly innocent remarks can have. ~ At the height of my ED, the manipulative lens through which she filtered everything became increasingly distorted. If someone told me I looked well, I took that to mean I looked fat. Fuelling further restriction, she used this to convince me I wasn’t ‘sick enough’. That I could do better. But if someone said I looked tired or gaunt, I got a secret little thrill. My hard work was recognisable. I was doing a good job. Only when I came out the other side could I see how illogical that interpretation really was. ~ It just shows, you have no idea how someone might construe your words. Nor do you know what measures they may be taking to achieve their body size and by commenting on it, you could be unknowingly encouraging unhealthy behaviours. ~ Having got a little lost along the way, I’ve spent years being unkind to my body. Yet, despite denying it the nutrients it needed, it fought to keep me alive. It began feeding off itself, converting the glycogen and protein stored in my muscles back into useable energy. It clothed itself in a blanket of thin hair (lanugo) attempting to counteract the cold chill that felt as though it were coming from my innermost core. And for this, I’ll almost always be indebted to it. ~You might not be able to control how others see you or what they say to you, but you can work on how you see and speak to yourself. Your shape or size has never and will never define you as a person. There are so many other things that make you, you 💫. So be kind to your body! Appreciate all the amazing things it allows you to do like hug your loved ones and visit new places. ~ I’ve come to a sort of uncomfortable acceptance that my body is mine and it’s the only one I’m ever going to get. I therefore owe it to myself to treat it with the respect it deserves. And yours deserves exactly the same kindness 💕xo


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